Just one

Hello world.

00:41 am.

I just had a very dumb moment. I was trying to log in and stuff and the internet connection was slow as crap and basically very annoying. I was even thinking of not blogging and just going to sleep. In my mind i was slagging of my web providers and thinking what's the point of paying them the money i do every month.

Turns out i was downloading something which was taking up major bandwidth and consequently the internet connection was slow. Yah for my mega uber geniusness.


It feels very odd to be blogging after pretty much a two month non blogging period. It was most certainly not planned but it simply shows how life can be. I guess its the same for everything, you think i'll do it tomorrow, then tomorrow and the next thing you know weeks, months and even years have passed.

Still, here i am blogging away instead of getting some sleep but what the fuck right. Blog away, like you've never blogged before.



I almost cried today. I was actually quite close i think. In the end i didnt.

The last week has been really really stressful. I assume in the future i'll look back and be able to see everything clearly but right now its all going off. Why was i on the verge of tears?

Dreams. A dream, my dream.

I am once again on the verge of something that could be the start of something beautiful. But that is the damn fucking problem. I am forever on the verge, always one step or two away. I am like that sportsman/woman that never quite wins but always gets stupidly close. Everybody says "oh (s)he's so unlucky, was soooo close. Maybe next time". And the whole thing repeats itself again.

I was on the verge of tears because i want to finally win that damn fucking tournament for fucks sake. I dont want to win as many as Federer, Sampras, Woods or Schumacher. I just want one winners medal, just the one.

Sometimes i feel like luck does not smile on me but then i am in relatively good health and in perspective, that is very very bloody good.


So here's hoping that by the end of the year, i will be at the helm of a succesful business venture.