Looking back

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00.42am

I have said more times than i can think that i much prefer night-time. The peace, quiet, soft and gentle breeze. The mind wanders easily...mine does. The girlfriend is asleep next door in the bedroom.

It just occured to me that one day i will most likely look back on this period of my life with much fondness. It is slightly surprising because most times in life we just go along without truly realising what it is that we have or what it is that we are experiencing.


My day was going rather well until something happened. Something really simple. I didnt get an email, i didnt get a reply. On this one thing my mindset gradually changed without me realising it. Bloody hell. Eventually i was able to retrieve my default mindset. Its really weird how we as humans affect one another oftimes without even knowing it. I am almost certain that the person of whom i speak would be most surprised if i told them that not receiving a reply changed my mindset. I can barely believe it myself.


In historical terms, we classify periods of time. The dark ages, the middle ages etc. I tend to do the same in my own life. Thing is its not so straightforward cos some time periods overlap or have sub-periods of their own. Some of these sub-periods are probably worthy of being a full time period in their own right.

The last time period in my life prior to the current one is not very well titled. I simply refer to it as when i used to live (insert name here). Not a very good name but the time period in itself was fucking good.

The thing that surprises me is that looking back i mostly seem to remember the good times. As usual there were bad times, some of them were very bad but whenever i look back all i seem to find are good times.

It was a time marked by a few landmarks for me as a person (in no particular order):

• My first Holiday


• My first promotion (a job i really enjoyed)


• Living by myself (sort of cos i had a flatmate but hey who's asking)


• Meeting my girlfriend


• Forging a path of my own in life (yes very general i know but it is true)


• Making lots of friends (some of whom i have sadly lost touch with)


• Turning 21

The time period in itself lasted between 3.5 - 4 years depending on how one looks at it. I lived there for 4 years and so i prefer to use that as a measuring tool.

Looking back on it now i can honestly say it was probably the best years of my life. I remember once thinking "i have my own flat, my family's ok, i have a good bunch of friends, a good job and a sweet girlfriend, what more could i want". It wasn't perfect but it was bloody good. The only thing that at times saddens me is that its over. I often feel that i ought to have appreciated it more but i think i did. A lot of things have changed since then, the years have rolled on and we all have moved on in some ways. Friends and family who used to come and hang out have come and gone. One of whom died last year and another of my relatives who died early this year.

I guess that's life. Yes we have to keep moving and the world must keep spinning but sometimes, sometimes one just wishes that it wouldn't. Just for a while...just for a while