Wires

Hello world.

19:38 pm.

I am listening to Athlete's wires. Its quite a cool song and is dedicated to his little kid. I never got the lyrics till i read that they were about his kid being born and being rather poorly.

If you dont already know the song, check it out. Its pretty cool.



What is it about death? From an early age, we all know its going to happen to us and the people we know. Yet when it happens, it still leaves one feeling crap.

I have mentioned previously that probably my greatest fear is the death of those close to me. I still feel that way and maybe one day that will change, but right now it remains my number one fear.


Ironically i think death brings an answer to the greatest question of all. Is there an afterlife?

In an odd way, i am looking forward to my death so that this question can be answered. If there is an afterlife, it will definitely provide a different perspective to life.

Life and death are two ends of the same wire. Its just that if you are standing on the life end, you cant see the end.

Goodbye & R.I.P

I am in a daze as i type this. My mind is everywhere and nowhere at the same time, unable to put together thoughts coherently.

My uncle has died.

I dont know what to do, say, think, feel. I dont know anything. I feel like screaming out really really loud. I feel like crawling up and just sitting/lying still for ages.

I cant even remember the last time i saw him. I cant even remember the last time i spoke to him.


I am really hurt and affected by his death. I am just staring at my keyboard and i dont even know what to type.

Less than a year of bloggin and two posts of the deaths of people i know. I haven't felt this numb in a very very long time.

So numb, so numb, so numb, so numb.


Fuck's sake. Bollocks. Bollocks.


Goodbye uncle.

R.I.P.


A few years ago when my brothers/cousins and i were broke and had no money or food, we'd go to him. He'd help us out. Now he's gone.


I am sorry i didnt call, i am really really sorry. So fucking sorry.


R.I.P